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Post by L.A.C.R.I.M.O.S.A on Sept 15, 2007 17:37:36 GMT -5
"I Will Wait..."
I am not alone.
I will wait, I will wait.
'Til virgin Moon cradles hushed Night in silver
embrace as the crimson requiem of day is dragged slowly down
below a white-lined horizon . We thumb our noses at early
sleepers, for they know not of nightly wonders, of tenebrous
secrets lost in sleeping shadow. A silent vow forged in the
late, desolate hours of moonlit night: eternal companionship, our
manifested bond of substantiated trust, of un-
obscured, infinite love and of gilded, un-ending
friendship. Together, you and I. Inseperable.
I will wait, I will wait.
Sweet amnesia for sleepy ears was your voice over a
midnight telephone rendezvous, religiously practiced
day after day until listless eyes could not keep
at bay pressing Sleep and we crawl defeated into dry
oceans of warm, welcoming sheets. "Meet me tomorrow,"
you said. Important matters you spoke of, yet so distant, so
cold was your bittersweet voice.
I will wait, I will wait.
I have come, but where are you now? Kindled now is the
flame of solitude- so heartless, so cruel to curious
strangers, yet so worshipped, so solicited by her frequent
visitors. Your damned memory is all that remains now.
I will not wait, I will not wait.
And I am alone. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------- This was written on behalf of current situations in my life. I feel as though I am falling out of friendship with my best friend, and because of that, I really don't feel stable. I leaned on my best friend for years, and now that we're sort of growing apart, I feel as though my support has been ripped out from underneath of me and left to to stand on my own. She was the source of my stability, and now that that source is dissipating, I need to rely less and less on her. I dedicate this, with all my heart, to you, my friend.
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Post by ±Witchcraft± on Sept 15, 2007 17:43:46 GMT -5
-snaps fingers in background when she finishes-
When one door closes, five more open in its place, you only need to learn how to see them.
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J-Bear!
Junior
One With Billions Of Names; Student- Jatza, Dae [M:380][M:500][M:500][M:-410]
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Post by J-Bear! on Sept 15, 2007 18:07:16 GMT -5
Don't fret, Vampy, I'm feeling the same way. She hasn't been my source of stability, but a wonderful companion. Everyone drifts from at least one of their friends, even if they were certain the relationship would last decades. My only advice is for you to be strong, and to continue channeling your feelings through poetry and artwork, and perhaps listening to a bit more music. ;D We're all here for you, Vamps.
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Post by L.A.C.R.I.M.O.S.A on Sept 15, 2007 18:32:11 GMT -5
I appreciate your concern for me, guys. ^^ Really, I do.
I can't say that my best friend and I aren't friends anymore. That's not the case at all! (Thank God) We're still very close, but now she's hanging with a lot more people, we barely get to see each other anymore, and when we do, our conversations are awkward, almost forced. She just doesn't really seem interested anymore.
Hopefully this'll all change when she comes to my birthday party. =/
Thanks again for your support. <3333333
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J-Bear!
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Post by J-Bear! on Sept 15, 2007 18:47:27 GMT -5
Well, I hope so. I would hate if I had to go to NJ and find her . . . No, I'm kidding. But seriously, I hope things amend themselves.
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Post by L.A.C.R.I.M.O.S.A on Sept 15, 2007 19:00:21 GMT -5
lol Nahh, we're still tight.
The situation that really set me off and got me thinking about this happened on Friday in AP History. We had to partner up and write an outline for the chapter. Normally, we'd do EVERYTHING together, and choosing partners for the both of us was unquestionable- we were /always/ together.
But then, I look over at my friend, and she's pulling her desk next to her crush who sits next to her....
I just felt really betrayed and alone. =/ Never, ever, N-E-V-E-R!!!- are you EVER supposed to pick a crush over a friend. Never...
And the fact about her "crush" is that he already has a girlfriend. I mean, they /are/ friends and all, but they flirt constantly. O___o And my friend's crush's girlfriend just so happens to be another very close friend. -__- And a friend of hers...
I don't try to be clingy. Really. I'm just dead afraid of her leaving me or breaking apart our friendship over stupid reasons, because this isn't the first time this happened.
My ex-bff and I were friends ever since we were little children. One day in Middle School, she asked if it was alright with me if she sat with another group of friends that day. Not wanting to sound possessive, I said it was her choice and was fine by me.
I never spoke to her again.
Even now, when we see each other in the hallways or pass each other by, we never speak a word. I just really don't want that to happen again because the awkwardness and.../animosity/ in the process is extremely uncomfortable and even more so dis-heartening.
*shrugs* Maybe I'm just being overly dramatic, but I can honestly say that I just can't help it. =/
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J-Bear!
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Post by J-Bear! on Sept 15, 2007 19:20:31 GMT -5
Don't feel bad, and you're not being clingy or possessive. That's almost like it is wth my friend, except she and I still talk. And I know what you mean about the crush.
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Post by L.A.C.R.I.M.O.S.A on Sept 15, 2007 19:27:35 GMT -5
lol Yea, I know I'm not extremely clingy. After all, I don't want to make my friends feel like I own them or something. xDDD
"Andrea, can I go with-" "No. >=O I didn't give you permission." "But, Andrea! I just-" "NO! >=O Now do my homework..."
Lmao. Gawd forbid...
But as the saying goes "Chicks before dicks". xDDD Maybe I should tell my friend about that...
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Post by L.A.C.R.I.M.O.S.A on Sept 15, 2007 19:45:09 GMT -5
I love your MP background and Icon, by the way. O.o;
I just noticed the change. It's pretty!
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J-Bear!
Junior
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Post by J-Bear! on Sept 15, 2007 20:02:56 GMT -5
LMFAO No.
Thanks! I just changed it after I posted, so don't worry. =D
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Post by L.A.C.R.I.M.O.S.A on Sept 15, 2007 21:14:12 GMT -5
Oh, ok. lolz
What does it say on the icon, btw? Do you know?
It's too small for me. O.o;
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Post by hannah montana on Sept 15, 2007 21:54:17 GMT -5
lol, on jatza's icon it says "be safe" which is what edward says a lot XD
and andrea. i've been there. D: listen to these songs. You're Not Alone - Saosin In Pieces - Linkin Park Pressing On - Relient K. Writing On the Walls - UnderOATH.
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Post by L.A.C.R.I.M.O.S.A on Sept 15, 2007 22:48:55 GMT -5
lolz. We must have allllll been there. I grew up with a couple of friends who "turned to the dark side", so to speak. They completely shunned me and went with the "popular crowd". -.-
One girl even said to me (not directly, but it was DEFINITELY implied) that she would have rather gone to her sister's soccer game than to my birthday party. O__< Wtf? I invited her to my party, and she was all, "Ohh, well, my sister has a soccer game..."
What kind of ass-clown would rather see their little sister's soccer game than go to a friend's party?
In fact, I don't even remeber her having a sister....O___o;
=3 Thanks for the songs, though. I'll be sure to check them out. ^^;
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J-Bear!
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Post by J-Bear! on Sept 16, 2007 9:34:36 GMT -5
Yeah, it says 'Be Safe' in fancy writing, which I have a strange feeling was a note to Bella from Edward left in her truck after he found the keys. O.o
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Post by hannah montana on Sept 16, 2007 11:31:27 GMT -5
I don't remember that...but I do remember something he said in New Moon like that and I could SO SPOIL the ENTIRE book by saying it XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD I'll just say. I cried for like five minutes then got incredibly pissed off at Edward and was like "WTF YOU INCONSIDERATE MANWHORE D:<!" oh, and don't read the preview of new moon in the back of twilight, unless you want to be biting your hands off in anticipation XD
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